she thinks methinks she longs for a period - a period of her own- she longs for a period, a period belonging to her - it doesn’t need to be long - she thinks: methinks i miss the secrecy, she thinks methinks, i miss the suspense, she thinks if things were thinkable the way she envisions things not to be not to be a knot to untangle not dot dot dot (not a full stop) words are omitted here, some words not permitted here, she cannot stop envisioning what’s thinkable, she thinks methinks things, such as bloody underwear, she cannot think a period, perhaps too dramatic of a grammatical change, at her disposal is not more than this proposal with too many commas and exclamations such as what the hell is happening around me or is this real life exclamations no explanations marked by a line and a dot not forming a well understood aggressive address she is a straight thin line red gashing ahead into the future without and end, she thinks in exclamations, shouts out to whoever is there if someone is there she never knows who is listening when she thinks she thinks methinks i long for a period, complete inertia, temporary but complete inertia, tempting, is it not, a moment of a full stop, inertia have mercy, give me a break, and she is charging and building suspense and she, methinks after suspense cometh release and after release cometh closure after closure cometh charging and building and cometh suspense and after suspense cometh release and after release cometh closure and she is suspending an unending sentence to death and the clock doesn’t strike its a quarter to twelve or half past the hands of the clock don’t close but after charge and suspense nothing but an unending thought thinning out, timing out, not the right discharge, no closure, no death, no temporary end, temporally unending, pending, depending on the pendulum of spacetime and she wishes it would come to a sudden halt, so that she could historicise this era so that it would become one, understood, a closure, some unity, a unit in time, a slice, a cut, cutting off time causes heavy bleeding, literally, letterally marks, question marks, why this highly undefined time, for it has no discernable borders, no ends, just means, it means something, perhaps she thinks of her parentheses, had they given her a break she could locate in time right now, had she been a welcome quote unquote discharge, she gashes, dashing forward, somebody hold her, bracing her embracing her in a sweet brace, but she can’t hold - still - she still can’t hold still even in an embrace, and she thinks this is preposterous, the proposition that this could be a sign, an apostrophe, you are too possessive of me, when she could think of herself as more self-possessed, maybe there would be rest, but there is always a rest to be written a little rest on the left left out, and when she thinks it is coming, the period, the death sentence, there is nothing but a sharp pain in her colon, semi- she thinks, almost, at most, methinks the unthinkable constantly occurs, no cure for suspense, and anticipation becomes mourning for a period never achieved, a lot of unfinished phrases, unthought, incongruent, everyone is obsessed with a period because they like to begin again, a discernible length or span of time, a connection to symmetry, recurrence, conclusion, and then there is she, another comma coma, oh how tired she feels, questions mark all of her body why and wherefore heavy bleeding again where is the end the death sentence she is afraid and she knows a period marks the end of a declarative sentence, but what is there to declare or explain without period pain, with a full stop she knows in the pain there is wisdom, too, and with a period abbreviations, possibly, abbreviations rather than endless reverberations, etc dot etc dot etc half stop repeat from the beginning repeat